One Shoulder Blush Top | A Little Honesty + A Giveaway


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one shoulder blush top

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one shoulder blush top

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Grace of Thunder clutch

one shoulder blush top

Grace of Thunder clutch with pretty nail polish

grance of thunder clutch and wallet with lipgloss

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Good Morning Friends and Happy Monday! 

I hope you all had a lovely and relaxing weekend. We're watching our landlord's dog Bentley for a week so I spent mine wrangling two morkie pups. That's right - two morkies! I got some really cute pictures of them I can't wait to share. They play so well together and Heidi, surprisingly, entertains Bentley's pursuits haha. Luckily, they've been taking lots of naps because I've been trying to wear them out in the backyard running laps around the tree. They love the squirrels...well...they love chasing the squirrels. Heidi hattesss them and Bentley still seems scared lol. Anyhow...

I thought I would chit chat with you all a little while today about some things that have been going on in my life and some frustrations I've felt lately. I've had a really positive response to my more candid posts so I thought I'd share more than usual about what's going on behind the scenes. If you read my post here about some recent changes in my life, this will all make more sense. The short version is I decided to leave my job as a contractor a couple weeks ago and have been trying to decide what I want to do next. I currently work, almost full-time, as a stylist and what I would consider, part-time, as a blogger. It's probably still considered a "hobby" which is okay but has been growing by the day so it's becoming more than that. I've also shared briefly in the past in a post here that I suffer from anxiety and have for many, many years.  

For some reason, last week was a rough one for me. I felt much more anxious than usual and found myself so frustrated at times I almost felt paralyzed by indecision and irritation. And here's the thing. My life in general, especially my personal and love life, are fantastic, no complaints. But the small things stacking up in my "work" life just seemed to get the best of me. It was one of those weeks where one thing happened, and then another, and another, until I was at my wits end with everything. It started with some expectations I set for myself falling below the line, then my Instagram engagement dropping (ugh), my website having technical issues, missing deadlines I set for myself, and overall feeling like I don't have the direction I need. Those who know me well know I need direction and I love to have a plan. Oh, how I love plans! And right now I don't really have one. I know what I want and I know what I love but getting there is harder said than done. And I honestly didn't expect to be in this position so soon. 

I knew one day my goal would be to work for myself or to work remotely 100%. To say that's what I'm doing right now is great, but I still don't feel like I have the support beams or foundation in place yet, if that makes sense. SO...the anxiety kicked in. I've been an anxious individual as long as I can remember. I think it stems from my need to always be "perfect" and to succeed at everything I do. I've always expected nothing less than the best from myself and when I feel I'm struggling or I'm hesitant to make a decision, it really affects me internally. My mood, my interactions with others, my sociability, and my motivation to keep things moving along. 

One of the things I've learned rather recently is it's important to talk about how I'm feeling. I've always tried to be so stoic and take care of things on my own or without complaint. But that doesn't always translate to those around you. I know there have been times when Justin thinks he's done something wrong or that I'm unhappy, when really I'm dealing with things completely unrelated to our relationship. I opened up to him this past week and ended up feeling so much better. Even though I don't have all the answers I know there's someone supporting me who doesn't judge me for not always being able to explain why I feel the way I do or thinking something is "wrong" with me. That's always been my fear. That if I talk about my anxiety people will look down on me or think less of me. I've had moments where that did, in fact, happen, so for a long time I was like a turtle with its head inside its shell. 

I'm probably rambling now but I hope me opening up more is helpful for those of you who may be feeling similarly. It's always nice to know others feel the same way or are having similar life stresses, small or big. I am an optimist in the respect that I truly believe everything happens for a reason. My mom always told me this and I've grown up finding peace in it as life unfolds. I know I wouldn't appreciate what I do have or will have if I didn't have to work hard for it, overcoming obstacles along the way. I'm still working to feel proud of myself and confident in my abilities. I know it will come with time and building the right mindset each and every day.

On a positive note, there are some exciting changes coming to Pardon Muah this week and new ideas coming to fruition so stay tuned for more. I'm excited to share! Thank you for reading and listening. Everyone is always so sweet and supportive and it's wonderful to feel a growing sense of community here and via social media. I'll have more life updates coming as they unfold and don't forget to keep reading for a fab giveaway!

grace of thunder wallet giveaway

Yay! I'm hosting another giveaway this week! Grace of Thunder was kind enough to send over the clutch I'm carrying in my photos above and the elephant wallet pictured here that you can win! You know what I would also use it for? Jewelry! I was taking photos and realized how wonderfully it would work as a bangle and ring holder. The quality of these products is top notch and I love that they are all hand made, and therefore, all a little different. The owner was even nice enough to extend a 5% off discount with the code #pardonmuah! It's easy to enter, just see below.

Btw, my one shoulder blush top is only $39 and also come in white!


31 comments

  1. Thank you for sharing this personal post with us. I am sure it feels like you are the only one struggling to find a place in this world, but I can promise you that very few of us know what we are doing half the time! Can't wait to see what adventure you start next!!

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  2. Hang in there Amanda, things will get better
    Kate
    Katekoutures.com

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  3. Glad to hear that you have new ideas coming to fruition for the blog. Thanks for sharing with us.

    I love the idea of using the wallet to hold jewelry. I'd love to win it just for that. I sometimes like to add or remove depending on what venue I'm in, and this would hold it quite nicely.

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  4. I'd love to win this gorgeous wallet because it's the perfect size for all my purses/totes/carry-ons. I love that clutch too.


    So alleviated to hear that from someone else. I, too, suffer from anxiety and it's nice to know one is not alone. Things will always get better. At least, that's what I tell myself :)

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  5. Thanks so much for sharing. I absolutely adore your blog, instagram and instastories. You're someone I can aspire too and hope my blog does just as well. Keep up the good work! You'll do amazing at whatever you put your mind to!

    Michelle
    http://www.patternsandbatter.com/blog

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  6. Thank you so much for sharing this. I absolutely adore your blog, instagram and instastories. I can only hope my blog is just as successful. You're doing amazing work, so just keep your head high!

    Michelle
    http://www.patternsandbatter.com/blog

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  7. The wallet is so stylish. I love it. (:

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  8. I can totally empathize with your anxiety struggles. I'm always jealous of those who aren't affected by it...
    Anyway, I love this wallet. As you mentioned, I think it would be a great jewelry holder! And I love the idea that it is a one-of-a-kind, handcrafted piece.
    ~ Kim Pincombe Cole

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  9. I would love to win this wallet because it is a perfect way to stay organized and keep all your cards in one place. I have a habit of just tossing my cards into my bag after using causing myself panic the next time I go looking for them & can't find them! This will help me stay organized and know exactly where to look each time. Also who doesn't love elephants ♥️��

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  10. I love and and would be very handy

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  11. Would love to win to replace my old one!

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  12. I would like to win this because it's super cute and would match my purse!

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  13. I love this wallet it would be perfect to keep up with your cards and things to keep it all organized and nice and neat

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  14. I am going on vacation in December and need something classy to take with me.. This looks perfect

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  15. I love the wallet it is really unique and stylish

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  16. I would like to win the wallet not only is it classy and it would go with pretty anything I have but also it's so hard to find a wallet that will last. I'm kinda hard on wallet/purse and I don't mind spending the money (which like everyone else is hard to come by at times) as long as they last.

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  17. I would love to win this wallet because it is beautiful and will help me keep my stuff organized

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  18. I love this wallet, so lovely and unique!

    kimberlybreid at hotmail dot com

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  19. Very nice really need new wallet just did wash and found money in like four pockets

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  20. I haven't had a new anything in a long time! Thanks for the opportunity!

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  21. (1) If I showed you mine, you would understand why. (2) Elegant, beautifully crafted and I love elephants

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  22. I'd like to win it because it is so pretty an would fit perfect in my purse that I care all the time. Holly Wright

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  23. I would love to win this clutch because I appreciate all the time spent making it, it shows! One of a kind and I love that! Thank you for the giveaway! Always keep your head up <3 I also have bouts with anxiety and know how much it can really make life difficult.

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  24. I really need one and think it would be very useful!

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  25. I'd like to win this wallet because it is definitely an original design. Very sleek, elegant and fun looking!

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  26. i love how stylish it looks. this would be great to take me with me places

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  27. I would love to win it cause i dont have a clutch and its perfect with my style

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